I have been trying to be brave and whatnot but today is just hard. Today is the Due Date for the baby I lost in December. At this point I will either have already had my new bundle and been sterilized, or I'd still be huge and uncomfortable and trying to get said little one to come out and meet us already!
I just don't know how to forget that I wanted something so much and was thisclose to getting it, and then it all went out with a gush of blood and cramps.
It does not help that Caleb (my "big guy" according to the boy himself) will be moving on to Kindergarten. Our original family plan was to have 4 in 4...that had to be put off because Jake wasn't the easiest infant and we wanted a few years to work on our marriage. 2nd family plan was to have 2 in 2, 5yr gap and then 2 in 2. Then I got pregnant with Katie...*sigh*
We aren't sure when our next tiny family member will be born, but we're hoping s/he comes before Big Sis (aka, Sissy) turns 5. That's about all we can do right now!
Big hugs sweetie...
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